today had the online survey first..did only one and we were asked to leave..cause got next class le..then we proceed to take class photo..haha..the informal one..i ran to the back..ahhaz..so fun..then went to the IT thing..so sianz..compulsory to write an essay..and i write crap..ahahz..anyway also won't win de mah..so write crap faster..hahaz.. then mr yeo passed me the attendance thing to do..hahaz...got something to do..then i just had to do it.. raining..then i went to play captain ball with r1 with some others..so fun..that kunsheng hor..hahaz..then went to play with amanda them..so fun..then need to go back class..for dunno what thing..finished up my attendance thing...hahaz..then went to play captain ball again..so fun!! and tired too... haiz..now so tanned le...think got sunburn..somemore i got running nose...haiz... ate in sch..then went to tm..went to take neoprints with sandra..yue wen..sing yee..jenny...shan..then met lingfeng to go home..went to tuition.. haiz..tml going co that thing...just now talked to jean..told her i not scare..but i see how others are preparing..i began to feel so zi bei!! told sandra what i will be wearing..she said very informal...then she told me that she think mei qi & huang yi they all will be very beautiful de...haiz..so zi bei me..i'm not even preparing anything..so shi bai de me...haiz..i hate myself...i hate myself!! stupid me!! got trick by patrick just now also!! i hate myself!! why am i so stupid?? whyyy!!!?? inferior to everyone!! haiz i thought everything will be back to normal yesterday.. but today.. it has been proved.. i get it.. really.. but.. i'm a walking contradiction.. i said that i'm giving up..but why am i still like this? i really hate myself..really.. why?? i'm really inferior to others... inferior...
